im closing the blog.. i feel tht i need privacy..i'll be blogging somewhere else..byebye
happy national day everyone..
9th august.. i love august.. it signals holiday, fun and the last quarter of the year.. n this august it'll be extra special if i pass my driving test on the 24th of aug.. and also get my place in nus which is still hanging in the air..
the bad side of it is that i still have 1 mth of trng to go..its made worse when i have no close friends like that of the outside world..with that, i turn to books to keep myself company..i've completed reading 2 books to date.. one being God's smuggler (got it from sarah..) the other being the wedding - by nicholas sparks... i really loved both books despite the wedding being romance in genre.. nonetheless i feel tht the book speaks to guys more than girls.. o well.. the amazing this is that my muslim squad mate, shaheen, it really interested in testimonial books after reading God's smuggler so much so that he kept asking for more of such books..n im gonna lend him my mum's chinah book to him..n reading the time traveller's wife now.. n u know what's the best thing? i got it for 21 bucks n my friend got it for 3 bucks!! ahh!!!
that aside.. i think i totally agree with the fact that all of us will marry our parents one day.. for guys.. we'll be marrying girls that has our mum's character whereas for girls.. it'll be the reverse..i could guarantee that after today cos.. i somehow found myself caught in a situation whereby i really felt that i want to eat my mum's cooking when im married.. n also for other stuff character wise.. i guess..
n last of all.. i took the DISC test again.. n i found myself being catergorised as Influential in nature.. which means that im vocal.. usually having wild ideas..
ok im gonna make the most out of the time left for me..
my sister's in law's voice is annoying!! is so sharp n loud n sooooo CHINAH!!!! ARGHH!!!! she keeps saying zhe shi she mo yan she? wo she she mo yan she?? ahhh so annoying can she stop the chinah accent for crying out loud!!! ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its friday.. i passed my driving test..
this morning, i had quite a fantastic dream in the sense that it was from God..
no doubt about that cos i could really feel his warmth throughout the short dream tht i had..it was the second time tht i had a dream of such nature.. but this time.. i felt that it was something more real..it found myself in church attending yf..n i was just worshipping God with my hands lifted up..then suddenly..all noise ceased n it was replace with a peaceful but majestic background sound..all i could see was a bright golden light the shone from above with a strong arm from an angel clothed in white n with curly locks..i looked up and grabbed the arm that extended towards me..i felt warm n joy n peace filled me heart..as i was ascending higher..it felt warm n comforting.. but as soon as i thought about the people im going to leave if i went up to heaven..i was thrown back down to reality n i found myself lying on my bed in bunk..
im wondering now.. what was God trying to tell me? i'm not ready for heaven? was he really going to take me up then? or was it just a waking up call? i felt really guilty then for turning back....or was he telling me tht worship takes u to a different place--one that u can feel God's presence n the peace n comfort he assures u..
o well.. i wish i could have tht dream again.. tmr's winston's wedding.. hoho..
feeling lousy..
my world is crumbling..
i dont wanna go in...
plsplspls.. save me!!
i miss being home everyday..
if im 5 yrs old now.. i'll cry n hold on to my mummy..
if i'm 12 yrs old.. i'll still hold on to my mummy.. n shout n scream..
ahhhh!!!! 30 more mins!
im so unmanly..
i'm feeling like crap again.. im booking-in in 3 hrs time..oh shit! arghh!! i dont like this! dont like it at all.. cant wait to get out again.. sigh.. i wish i could just put myself in auto pilot n let God do the rest.. i wish i had a better saturday with my sch friends.. i wish i had a better sunday with my church friends.. i wish i was a better person to everyone.. somehow.. i feel like i need to just go on a personal retreat n be all alone by myself.. just me n God..yes i'm in Christ--re-empahsised by Reuben today..somehow i feel tht i need Christ to be in me n beside me thru these times.. this blog isnt a blog anymore.. its so public! ahh!
please give me a good week! please grant me into a uni.. please make me happy! i love u lord!
ok.. i've been posted to npco.. but its really dry n boring considering the fact that i have lessons everyday.. n life just gets worse with panther breathing down our necks.. we'd thought we'll get another company for a change but noo!! stupid panther still wants us.. i want out out out! down to panther for the sake of mankind! the stupid fella makes us wake up at 530 every morning for a yelling session at 6... he does tht everymorning/day/evening/really a power hungry freak..urghh.. apart from tht.. im exposed to new bunkmates n i hope tht things go well the next 7 wks.. yeah! 7 wks left..
on the flipside.. my driving theory starts next wk... but i still think having a wk's worth of lessons for basic theory is ridiculous.. but nonetheless i shall not complain much cos.. where on earth could u get a class 3 in 1 and 1/2 mths!!?!? hoho.. so excited on the prospect of driving.. my pay still stagnates at 320 with 30 bucks disappearing as usual... oh wel.. nothing much has changed.. just cant wati for the 7 wks to end..
apart from tht.. my life's kinda feeling ups n downs.. its kinda different now.. some kinda feeling tht's hard to explain.. oh boy.. only God could understand i guess..
the world cup just went by without making much of an impression in me.. guess its due to me being in camp n all.. just cant wait for epl to start.. hopefully by then.. i could get my freedom back.. oh.. i need to alter my sleeve n maeb get a neck tie.. n a polo tee.. oh well.. money pls!!!!
im quite encouraged by the fact tht people actually read my blog..
heh heh.. i'll do this entry in brief..
1) having gastric n flu...
2) having my law exam tmr..
3) i like songs from the battlecry album
4) i enjoy spending time with the cg guys.. (wilco, sumit, scott, matt..etc.)
5) i did well for sbt..
6) i want to get an ear piercing after i pop.. but i duno wedda my mummy allows
7) here's why i love the gss: bought shirt from epsrit : $69
pants from topman: $66
wallet from fossil : $34
8) quite broke this month cos of gss and handphone bill which is $69
9) oh yah.. slept the whole of last monday n tuesday in camp.. how slack was that??
ok thts all..
world cup craze...
my friends came over to watch the games.. the whole house went mad.. including little valena.. she was playing footie.. missed the days whereby we just hang out and waste our time away.. miss the boyhood days we had.. however this was pricely paid with jia going to church camp at bangkok..but so far.. im coping well..darn thirsty now..yeah! holland n argentina won..that aside.. i miss being a child, whereby nothing else matters except fun..now there's so much to worry about.. i really feel like hitting the waves...
after wakeboarding..
on the boat..
antz good friday gathering..